Competitive

Okay so I found a hospital this summer to volunteer at for when I was starting school. I wasn't old enough but my birthday is coming up soon so I am now. What really pisses me off as that I told my friend I was going too and now she wants to do it too. I guess you could say life isn't fair or I'm being a selfish bitch but I feel incredibly competitive, pissed, and jealous. I was researching all summer for this and was waiting until I was the right age to do it and she can just do it immediately because of me helping her. To top it all off she's also doing an internship with apple and is trying to be all competitive with me now. I really wanted to just go to this hospital and help people. To be someone who can do something for her community. She wants to do this because she wants to be a pharmisicist which I suppose make senses but...I'm so mad right now. Have you ever had that crazy feeling? Where you just get mad for no reason? I'm incredibly jealous now. I've never felt more furious.